Yesterday we got new pictures of our dear Hannah Min. This time I saw the e-mail appear in my inbox, and I braced myself. I knew that, like our last update, she would have grown, and I was hoping to handle it better than last time. Unfortunately, I don’t think that I have. She has changed so much in the past two months. Just the night before I got this update, I had a dream about holding her hand while she took her first step. Obviously by looking at this picture, that has already happened, and we weren’t there. It hurts me deeply to think about all the months that we have missed when we are just sitting here wanting her home. The red tape required in adoption , while I understand it in so many ways, is beyond frustrating in another.
My main consolation is that we should be there in person before it would be time for us to get another update. I just hope and pray that when I have her in my arms all these months of waiting will fade away, and I can focus on enjoying all of the wonderful firsts that she will be able to experience with us. We have missed many of the regular “firsts” that people look forward to witnessing in their babies, but there is so much more life for her to live. We’re coming, baby girl!!!!